My Blogging Crap

I couldn’t find the words to say
I stare into space my mind is blank
The news came too fast, too harsh
Maybe it was me who was too impulsive
To have mistaken your expectations in this friendship for sommthing more

Love is like a performance
And mine is a tragedy
With a sad ending before it even ends
Maybe I really don’t know love
Who can I blame but myself

Why does this always happen?

I guess it was over before it began
Or perhaps…it was never meant to be

So I have to say this today

Goodbye

Say goodbye to you now
You won’t understand
The pain i feel
It really hurts
I dun wanna let go
Maybe after a decade or so
You’ll then cherish me
And my love

I left you the scenery, gave him the date
I left you the smile, gave him forgiveness
I left you the memory, gave him the time
I left you the tears, gave him the responsibility

I left you the photograph, gave him the calender
I left you the colour, I gave him the scenery
I left you the distance, gave him the silence
I left you the fireworks, I gave him the festival

I left you the movie ticket, I gave him the seat
I left you the candles, I gave him the dinner
I selected the songs for you, I gave him the microphone
Sounds for you, picture for him

I left you the storyline, I gave him the ending
I left you the crystal shoes, I gave him 12′o’clock
I left you my heart, I gave him my body
I rather leave nothing, so I have no regrets

If I still have grief, Let the wind blow it asunder
I still have happiness

If I still have grief, Let the wind blow it asunder
If I still have happiness, perhaps…

So you really do cherish me that much
You never told me that when we were so deeply in love
Don’t say that these hyprocritical words  are not good enough to make me stay

You know the reason why we are breaking up
Even if we had the strongest castle, it had been slowly crumpling all along
As stubborn as I am, I still cannot endure this
It is too fake to pretend that my life is full of happiness everyday

No matter how stupid, it is still me
I know who is good to me and who isn’t
I want to keep on acting dumb, but I’m too tired of this torture
I wish I were one of those people who act regardless of consequences

I’m leaving soon, don’t make me cry
Especially when you know that Gemini’s love to cry
If goodbye is your next word, you can shut your mouth
Lets not meet again, because it will only hurt me more

If I leave now, there is no medicine that will stop the bleeding
Give me some tea that will help me sleep peacefully for half a night
Whether I lose you now, or ten years from now, it’s the same at the end
heartless enough, I will even kick myself out

You met me
You introduced yourself to me
You were a friend to me
You grew fond of me
You grew to appreciate me
You liked me
You asked me…& I answered
You held me
You touched me
You needed me
You wanted me
You loved me
You grew tired of me
You felt trapped by me
You lied to me
You cheated me
You hurt me…

The one who broke my heart
you’re the reason my world fell apart
It’s people like you who make me cry
But yet I still love you
And I really don’t know why

You’d think I would have learned my lesson the first time
But no, I had to come back again for another go-round
I had to once again feel that pain that I thought would never go away
I had to once again cry myself to sleep every night
I had to watch you slip away yet for another time
Now I know why I left the first time
Because, this is pain that my heart can no longer take
Hurt that my heart finds once again unbearable
I will now bow out gracefully
So sad to say that after all we have been through, this is now going to end…

you’re nothing special - you’re just another guy
don’t lead me on - if it’s another lie
just leave me alone - like you’ve always done
you hurt me too much to be the right one

I’ve said what I needed to say
I’ve done what I needed to do
Now whatever happens to us
I guess I’ll leave up to you

Looking at the dark night sky
I’m reminded of the faraway planet you pointed out to me
My tears no longer fall
Cos I’ve accepted; you’re happy now that we’re apart
There’re still so many people who’re unhappy
But at least you’re not one of them, now that I’ve left

Fate hinted before
That your love will forever be as faraway as that planet in the skies
You were right about it
Now I understand what they mean, when they say you only grow when you’ve been hurt
I’ve never known how weak I am,
Until I realised I dare not love again… that moment I knew.

I love you so much, that’s why my pain’s so deep
When I realised I was in the way of your pursuit of love
I love you so much, my love hurts so much
Every time I sleep, I have the same dream of your back as u turn away from me.

That planet you’ve once pointed out to me, is just like the dream I’ll never fulfil.

Leaves fall everyday… especially so tonight.
When the wind blows, each leaf drops, as my tear drops
Every night, some person will get their heart broken.
Who did they believe in who cause them such pain?
How does one feel, when the contract of love has been terminated?

Is it possible to have no worries and regrets, while still faithfully collecting the fallen leaves?
My heart’s so silly… just so silly that I can’t even cry

I’m indifferent, cold as ice, calm as water
I don’t leave space for hopes to invade my closed heart
If emotions are undoable knots, and people only care about knowing who’s been hurt
I’d rather be the leaf that falls as the wind blows

I’m indifferent, I’ve been hurt, I’ve cried before
I only care that love’s innocent, so why am i trapped in this conundrum?
When the world’s blinded by emotions,
I’d rather be the last fallen leaf