My Blogging Crap

In the mirror, I see a stranger’s face
A faded look in the eyes
Smiling is only a twisted movement of the lips
My loneliness, who can understand?
Like a boat rocking in the sea
Even the North Star cannot be seen
Who can set the sails, and leave forever this dark lake?

Longing for you to be by my side
Please hold my hand tightly
Sometimes I think nobody can truly understand
All the pain I harboured inside
Fearful of using a sincere heart to face the world
Instead I have become more and more silent
A person floating in the sea
The person who is talking cannot be seen

Who can give me a warm embrace?
When I feel my heart beginning to break
Please tell a tired and lonely me
That you will always be waiting…for me

On the moonstruck stage of destiny ahead
Before boarding, spring is turning to falling leaves
All of sudden, the connection has ended
Oh that promise, will it still be fulfilled?
Not caring if love is painful or unbearable
Each person in their own world

Are you like me, restless for a few times
Love is a wrong feeling

Longing, so often it is only longing but not meeting
But the love is still being enacted
So who is playing old fashioned records?
That film is like leaving a message for the future

Will love ever be realised?

omg, i know i’m ranting and raving about the tiffany’s collection but look at it! check it out at http://www.tiffany.com

i actually managed to cut and paste from the website itself…wow i am internet savvy~ haha

the ones with the roman numerals are from the atlas collection, the epitome of elegance and sophistication. ahhh i love these so much. i’ve been saving up money for my very own T&Co. although i own 3, a doggy chain, a bracelet and a money clip (all which can be seen in the website itself), i feel like it’s not enough. and plus i didnt exactly buy those so at least if i get something i’ll feel a sense of pride since i saved up for it myself, as in NO REDBOX for a couple of weeks and plus NO DRINKING….well actually i did drink but not as much as i did a few weeks back. i’ve saved…about 400 bucks for the last 2 weeks, so i’m looking at saving another 400 maybe, probably could get me one of the rings hopefully… haha look at it sparkle *twinkle eyed*

yeah these few weeks have been cost-saving, meaning boring as in staying at home or going to an awful mamak-like place like darooz (if that’s how u spell it, heck i dont even wanna bother). ugh but it’s all gonna be worth it in mid-june!

oh do let me rant on about my tiffany. the other ring and the bracelet with the rubber lining both are from Paloma Picasso, one of the aclaimed designer from tiffany. check the other jewellery out~ trust me u’ll love it.

the etoile collection looks stunning and exquisite as well, but way too expensive as in each piece of jewellery are diamonds embedded in them. yeah…look see for me. sigh…

thinking of getting something for me on my bday? let me suggest either one of the jewellery in my picture. haha or u could choose to give me a hug and a kiss on the cheek if u want. ^_^ it’s up to u, either way i’ll love u loads.

Standing infront of the door of your house, we’re silent again
I am the one who wait for you
But for how long?
Finally you open your mouth and told me
How gentle he was
Even though you were holding my hand
But I’m already not inside your heart

I truly know
Not because you don’t like me
It is because I am not by your side when you’re lonely
Don’t look at me again and tell me you love me
I don’t want to get hurt

I’m not sad
It is nothing
But I just don’t know why tears keep flowing down my checks
Like hot steaming coals, stinging my eyes
Just let me go
Let me enjoy my freedom
Too many memories
Even your shadow still haunts me

I am not a coward
You know me the best
Even if I’m lonely
This is my last time to tolerate

Hold me tight
Hold me tight again
I am touched
Please let me have this feeling in my heart

Don’t say
It is your fault
This is the end for us
Right or wrong
Just let the wind blow it asunder
Forget everything
I will be happier than you

Now we seperate
Better than you not loving me and being with me still
Let go of your hand
Leave you forever
I just walk ahead
And it will be my way to release myself

Heard that winter is leaving
I woke up from nowhere
I’m thinking, I wait, I’m looking forward
The future is not for us to predict
Looking at the gloomy evening from outside my car
I believe there will be someone waiting for me in the future
Look left, look right, look ahead
Love will only come to me after certain detours

Wondering what kind of conversation with whomever I met
Wondering where is that person I’ve been waiting for
I can hear the wind from the subway and crowds
I’m taking the queue number for love

I fly ahead of me over an ocean of time
We’ve been hurt before in love
Looking at my route, I realised that the gate of my dream is too narrow
Meeting you is the most beautiful accident in my life
I believe my riddle will be solved in one day

I wish you were happy and would treasure your health
Hoping you won’t force yourself to be too busy
Why can’t I say the things I want to with my own mouth?
That I need to use SMS to help us communicate

I haven’t trusted the SMS you dare not to speak with your mouth
If you had the bravery to voice your feelings, you would have guts
I hate myself, for not having the courage to reply your SMS
You and I, politely said let’s not bother believing

Who treats me so bad I willingly admit defeat
When you won’t even count as a good friend
Yet you have such courage to tease me and call me an asshole?
I’ve gotten angry, and forgave after I turned my eyes away

10 calls, 6 calls, and you still say you think of me
After that, thinking of changing my ways would be inappropriate
I’ve been confused, endured pain, this won’t hold me up
At lease I have experienced a climax, would not seeing other again be enough?

I’ve already broken up with you and I’m scared to make up with you
You already don’t exist in my world
Who would have thought that today, the mobile phone is such a treasure
Even if I was to wash away your messages, I couldn’t do so.

I wish you were happy and would treasure your health
Hoping you won’t force yourself to be too busy
Why can’t I say the things I want to with my own mouth?
That I need to use SMS to help us communicate

I haven’t trusted the SMS you dare not to speak with your mouth
If you had the bravery to voice your feelings, you would have guts
I hate myself, for not having the courage to reply your SMS
You and I, politely said let’s not bother believing

Who treats me so bad I willingly admit defeat
When you won’t even count as a good friend
Yet you have such courage to tease me and call me an asshole?
I’ve gotten angry, and forgave after I turned my eyes away

10 calls, 6 calls, and you still say you think of me
After that, thinking of changing my ways would be inappropriate
I’ve been confused, endured pain, this won’t hold me up
At lease I have experienced a climax, would not seeing other again be enough?

I’ve already broken up with you and I’m scared to make up with you
You already don’t exist in my world
Who would have thought that today, the mobile phone is such a treasure
Even if I was to wash away your messages, I couldn’t do so.

The two of us
We became friends at first meeting
Three words
Two phrases
A thousand changes
Ten thousand guises
Seven emotions
Six desires
A lifetime of perfection

And then the two of us
We were in agreement
We’ve been through a thousand trials and tribulations
In the middle of the night
We make the four seas our home
We have nothing
Yet we still fall in love

One room
One bed
Two people
Always sleeping
One moment
One instant
A lifetime
Has passed unnoticed

A solemn pledge of love
I promise not to fear death

A solemn pledge of love
I’m willing to look forward eagerly

A solemn pledge of love
I support love all the way

A solemn pledge of love
I pledge never to regret

In the end the two of us
It’s just one’s wishful thinking
While there’s still a breath left in my body
The four elements are meaningless
If the two of us strive together
We would still be able to satisfy both sides

Don’t ask me to be too grateful to you
The colour of the medicine is too exquisite
Don’t make me taste its flavour
I’m so happy, my senses have become numb

Why do you protect me?
What would I be able to eat
Once I’ve completely recovered?
Why do you move me?
It makes it difficult for me to get used to
The least amount of pain

What do I fear?
I’m afraid to love
I support my emotions
I always become sensitive when I receive presents

What do I fear?
I’m afraid I’ll get into the habit of falling in love at all costs
Yet be unable to
Turn make-believe into reality

Don’t touch my arm
My pores are too weak
Don’t grant me too much good fortune
Making me miss you
Even when things are better

Why do you spoil me?
It makes it difficult for me to get used to
Not being completely covered by the blanket

What do I fear?
I’m afraid of being ensnared
I support my emotions
I’ve received solicitude, I only fear heartbreak

What do I love?
Love has made me repay too many people
Yet I don’t know
How to escape with my life

Who understands that I want to have a deep sleep
Who knew that I would be attending this event
Hope that you will accompany me
We’e not suitable, but it will be interesting

When you were happy, I asked you who liked
You replied whether I’m referring to a lover
If that’s what you’re talking about
I’m too afraid to tire myself
Then I bit my lip to hold back my tears

If I can
Just ask myself
Actually all I want is one kiss from you
And then you admit to me
I am who’s second choice?

Even though I know that you are not a good person
But at least I can get one impression
Even though I want to I still haven’t asked you

In reality, you have never treated a guy with sincerity
The secret of my love for you, who will want to prove it
Getting this sickness, I have no regrets
Only after switching off the lights, can I think about you freely
Unfortunately, I only have the strength to cry

My honesty towards you cannot make you honest towards me
The person who is loving, alone can still breathe with courage
While I know that you have not yet vanished
I’d rather not disclose this secret until the end of time

Actually I want to be near u
Actually I want to gamble my life
And then I want to…